future is ritual — shaunga

I Will Let It Be

“there are things we need to understand on earth that we cannot understand in spirit. that's why we're here.” 
—Samia Abou-Samra 

I was never that good 
at living in my body 
I've always remembered 
too distinctly 
too hazily 
a reality that could much better 
encompass me 

I was that kid in grade nine 
psychology, who asked: 
“what if this is about what happened 
in a past life?” 
a chorus of classmates
groaning around me 

I was the one who left you 
behind, to live in the clouds 
who dishonoured our partnership 
with my lack of respect 
for the possibility of failure 

I was the one who didn't want 
to be here 
I didn't 
want to be 
here   

but now I am 
different after death 

now I think maybe 
there are things I need to understand on earth 
that I couldn't understand in spirit 

what those answers are 
I don't know 
and I don't need 
to know 

what I will do is let it be revealed 

unravelled 

remembered 

broken down 

pieced together 

blown apart 

given back 

protected by community 

adored by the masses 

witnessed in intimacy 

howling from my broken heart 

dug out like the weeds 

spoken by the wound 

sung by the SOLLUS 

retching from my hands 

landing safely in my skin 

quiet like sunbeams 

pouring like heavy rain

rooting in the grandmother tree 

reunited with the cherry blossoms 
and sixty tulips 

testament from the flock 
and their flawless improvised choreography 

I will let it be 
freedom 

like unconditional trust 
below wide open skies  

revealed, unravelled 

remembered 

Biography

Shaunga Tagore is a fantasy-memoir writer, playwright & emerging director. astrologer & cross-dimensional communicator, cosmic coach, performer & producer. proud queer non-binary cat mama & Buffy enthusiast. ancestral self-healer, death doula & life preacher.

Shaunga’s work provides heartfelt storytelling, transformative insight, emotional depth, warmth, humour & empowerment for fellow superqueeros, weirdos, artists, survivors (r)evolutionaries & Otherworldly Giants: so we may all remember our purpose, and our birth right.